I’m feeling particularly discouraged this evening (I’m not going to get into the why). I don’t usually post much about my moods on Facebook, but tonight I did. And a few people reached out to check in with me. I had one particularly great “chat” with one of them and though I’m still feeling discouraged, I also feel thankful for the fact that I have some great friends in my corner. Thank you for being there when I need you.
It’s hard to believe that I started this blog just under two years ago. And it’s hard to believe that I have neglected it so. It feels like there’s always an excuse not to write. The last time I blogged seriously was in March of 2012. Since then I have posted a mere four times, each time vowing that I would get back to blogging. I’d like to say that this time will be different and I will be more consistent, etc, etc, but I’m not going to do that. The fact is that I have a busy and full life and maybe blogging just isn’t my thing. I have said before that I don’t have a lack of hobbies – there are actually so many things that interest me that I just don’t have time to fit them all in! All this to say that what I really want to get back to is taking the time to find something that I’m grateful for every day.
Today was an EXTREMELY difficult day with my little monkey and I honestly felt like banging my head against a wall on more than one occasion. At two and a half, he’s a handful. He’s had a really bad cold and a touch of the flu recently and was particularly clingy with me and wasn’t listening to anything Chris and I said. Add to the mix that Chris and I have both been under the weather and I had a headache for most of the day and you have one very frustrating day. Did I mention that in the short time Nathan actually napped that I sat down with a cup of tea, only to have the cat jump on me, causing me to drop the full cup and give myself a minor burn? Oh yeah, it was quite the day.
Now Chris is at the climbing gym and I managed to give Nathan a bath and get him to bed without too much difficulty, thank goodness. So I thought I would write to remind myself to look for the positive things. I have so much to be grateful for. I have a wonderful family (even when they drive me crazy), great friends, a wonderful home, a good job… So no matter how difficult my day is I need to keep perspective. I need to remember that I am one of the lucky ones.
So that’s all for today. More general than I would like to be, but that’s okay.
Oh and Happy New Year everyone!
After an extremely long hiatus I am pushing myself to get back to my thankful spot. I’m going to keep it short for today.
Everyday I am thankful for these two very special guys in my life:
It’s been so long since I last posted that I wasn’t sure how to get back into things.
Today a friend re-posted what may my favourite blog posts about motherhood. I am grateful for the reminder that I too am pretty good mother. I share a lot of her feelings of inadequacies and worries. I love my son more than I ever thought possible, but sometimes I want to go to stuff just for me and that’s okay. It doesn’t make me a bad mom. Actually, it probably makes me a better one in the long run.
Her post also brought to mind a Johnson’s Baby Commercial I saw back around Mother’s Day that gave me the warm fuzzies:
How has it been over 3 months since my last post?
Things got busy and I stopped writing. I am sorry for that. I never stopped being grateful for things, but I don’t know if I truly stopped to appreciate them as much as I do when I’m writing.
Since I last wrote Evolution Theatre presented a Double Bill of Mary Magdalene and Adventures in Sobriety and [boxhead] - unfortunately one of the actors in [boxhead] became ill and was unable to perform in 6 of 10 performances. It was an awesome show (or so I’m told, I never actually got to see it myself) and it’s a shame that so many performances had to be cancelled. Fortunately, the actor is doing better these days and we’re trying to work out a remount.
We sold out house and moved at the end of May, which was craziness, but we’ve come through it pretty well. There’s still a lot to do, but I’m grateful to have such a wonderful place to call home. The house itself is lovely and has a large yard for Nathan to play in. I actually think we’ve spent more time in our backyard since we moved in then we did all summer last year! Also, we have wonderful, friendly neighbours. I’m happy to be raising my son in this neighbourhood.
Just over a week after we moved I went back to work. It was actually easier than I thought it would be. I think the anxiety leading up to it was the worst part. Nathan adjusted really well to daycare, which I am extremely grateful for. I think that was the main source of my anxiety. Fortunately, we have an amazing caregiver who he loves and who adores him. I am so grateful for her.
My baby is no longer a baby. He turned one a few weeks ago and has definitely made the transition to being a toddler. It’s amazing to watch him everyday – he’s growing and changing all the time. Each day I am grateful to have this incredible little person in my life.
Thank you for sticking with me through this hiatus. I am grateful and flattered that you are reading. I will endeavour to be more diligent with my posts.
I can’t believe it’s been two weeks since I last posted. How did that happen? It feels like life has been a whirlwind of activity lately.
The past couple weeks have included afternoon tea, playgroups, doctor’s appointments, brunches, a craft sale and chilli lunch (for which I made a double batch of chilli), a board of directors meeting, the first read of Mary Magdalene and Adventures in Sobriety, meetings and other preparations for Evolution Theatre’s Double Bill of Mary Magdalene and Adventures in Sobriety and [boxhead]. Add to that Mommy duties and I’m exhausted! No wonder I haven’t been writing!
Anyhow, I’m tired, so I think I’m going to keep this short. I am thankful for everything that has been keeping me busy over the past couple weeks – especially the people and things that have been getting my butt out of the house! Now, if you don’t mind, I would like to take a breather. Oh yeah, we have a show opening in 11 days – I guess that’s not going to happen anytime soon!
I’ve been trying to write all week, but keep getting distracted. It is now nearly midnight on Friday and I’m finally getting a few minutes to review my week and be thankful.
Monday was my last day of my CBT group. My feelings are bittersweet. I’m sad that the group is over, but extremely grateful for being part of the group and gaining valuable tools to help me cope better in stressful/upsetting situations. I am also grateful for the lovely ladies I met and hope to keep in touch with.
Tuesday we had the inspection for the new house. The report was great! The major things are all in great shape and it’s pretty much move-in ready. Our realtor said it’s one of the best inspections she’s been to. I’m grateful that it went so smoothly and everything look so good!
Wednesday was the deadline for us to waive conditions on the new house. So it’s officially ours! Or at least, it will be on May 30th. I’m grateful that we found such a great house and everything is falling into place with it!
Also on Wednesday, the in-laws came over to babysit Nathan for a few hours. Chris was at rehearsal and I had a meeting to go (a monthly occurrence, but I hadn’t been to one since October). Nathan did well and so did I! I didn’t let my anxiety take over. It was tough, but I managed. When I came home, Nathan was in a good mood and they said he only cried for a little while when he realized I was gone, but it didn’t last too long. I’m still anxious about leaving him, but I think it’s getting better. I’m grateful that my in-laws are so willing to help out and that I had the opportunity to get out on my own.
Thursday we had a production meeting for Mary Magdalene and Adventures in Sobriety. We weren’t able to get the entire production team together, but I think we had a great meeting and I’m looking forward to seeing this production come to life! I’m grateful for such a great group of people to work with.
That brings us to today! I met my sister at Cora’s for lunch and then spent the afternoon and evening with her, my niece, and of course Nathan. Nathan was awesome at the restaurant – he smiled and waved to many of the other patrons and made good friends with the waitress who spoiled him with a special Cora’s cup and a balloon (he absolutely LOVES balloons!). I’m grateful that I can take my baby out into public places like that and have him be so well behaved. He has the kind of smile that people can’t help but smile back at, and I love being out with him. Of course, I’m also grateful for spending time with my sister and niece. I have an awesome family.
So there’s the week in review! Phew! Now, it’s time for bed!. Goodnight world!